Complicated feelings

I'm not quite sure where to begin or where to start

All i really know is that this is from bottom of my heart.

This may sound confusing or actually I am the one,

Who confuse with my own feelings,

But i write this just for you guys who are really precious for me.

I wanto get out from this stress and find the real me,

I just lost myself and still don't know how to find me.

Why can't i be happier?

Yet i have thoughts that always haunt me 

And memories that don't go away.

I think of my life, and that my problems aren't so bad,

But for some unknown reason i still feel kind of sad.

It's tough being a girl eh no being a teen, 

Sometimes it's just a scare.

I wish i had some answers for this stupid thoughts. 

Life isn't always fair.

Sometimes i'm just really lost and don't know what to do,

I wonder where to go and who i can talk to.

No one really knows which thoughts i choose to share,

But even if i told them probably they wouldn't even care.

Sometimes i wanto say, "thanks for all that you've done,"

But the words fly from my head as quickly as they come.

I don't know how to talk to you, to tell you how i feel,

Now and then it's so complex. life sometimes is surreal.

You may not always see me when i stumble, trip and fall,

When tears are in my eyes and there's no one to call,

I was just let it go by myself and buried it down deep,

You may not hear me when i cry in bed at night,

Hoping that my worries will somehow be put right.

You may not always love me isn't it? when we just don't get along

I may screw up when i just won't admit that i was wrong

I'm sharing with you because i know that you really care

The friend you are to me is special, precious and rare.

Sometimes i might act joyful to camouflage my fears

But down deep inside, i wanto burst right into tears.

All i need sometimes when my heart just wants to break

Is your smile and a hug. that's what i can't fake.

I need you, my friend, to take my hand and try

To help me mend my broken heart and be there when i cry.

I want you to be w me and walk with me on this scare road :p

To step along beside me and help me with this heavy load.

I want you to feel free, i hope i don't ask too much

Just be there when i need you, and offer me your shoulders

Some people are ashamed to cry, but i am not afraid

For crying is the way that i let out all my pain

And i know tho that you were there for me.

A friend walks in when all others walk out.

You knocked on the door when i was full of doubt.

You are an angel. 

You’ve helped me do what's right,

When i had no eyes, you saved me,

You were my sight.

You helped me through, without you, where would i be?

A blessing and a treasure is what you are to me.

You are great person with good advice to lend,

I just want you to know that you are a wonderful friend.

You've let me be who i am and tell you how i feel

The best thing ever finding a friend just like you

Who listens and talks to me, you make my day tho.