2025 has been a tough year for me. There’s a lot of things that happened that I can’t even write much about it.
I started my chambering at a firm last year, and honestly, it was far from easy. The journey was challenging in ways I never fully expected, but I’m grateful that I managed to survive and push through until the end of the year.
There is still so much for me to learn from my master and supervisor, the lawyers at the firm, and my fellow colleagues. Thank you for everything this year. I truly started from scratch, from not knowing how to draft pleadings, prepare permohonan and saman, handle kertas kausa, learning how to interact with people, manage clients, and understand how things really work in practice. Every step was a lesson. And yet, I know this is only the beginning. I still have a long way to go.
Truth be told, I was mentally weak at times. Whenever I made mistakes whether crucial or trivial, I would end up crying for the whole day, questioning myself: “Can I even do this?” “Am I really capable of pursuing this field?” Those negative thoughts often made me feel like I wasn’t good enough.
Despite that, I have immense respect for all lawyers out there. I especially admire my supervisor, how she manages everything so well and still takes the time and patience to guide me step by step. That alone inspires me to keep going.
2025 humbled me, tested me, and taught me resilience. I may stumble, I may be slow, but I’m still here and I’m still learning. Here’s to growth, strength, and becoming better in the year ahead. π±✨
I still have a lot to write, but I guess that’s all for today. No matter what happens, I must stay strong and never give up. No matter what.
There is a part of these lyrics that has become my strength. Whenever I feel exhausted both in body and heart these words remind me that as long as I keep going at my own pace, I’m already doing enough. These lyrics are from “Grow Up” by Stray Kids.
[Verse 2: Felix, Changbin, Bang Chan]
Should I stop or not? Should I give up or not?
Why can't I?
Throw away all these thoughts
In that time, just run
Feels like you're running without knowing where the end is
It's a cycle of having a tired body and tired heart
You're about to give up
But you're the one who decides the end
What's your decision? (Ayy-ayy, ayy-ayy)
Just the fact that you're running toward the end (Woah-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh)
You're doing enough, you're doing just fine
I know you and you're trying your best right now
That's all you need, just keep your pace
Don't be nervous, trust yourself
Whatever it is, I'm still grateful for the opportunity that I have.
Looking back, I realize that every struggle, every mistake, and every small victory has shaped me into who I am today. I may not be perfect, and the journey is far from over, but I am proud of how far I’ve come and I’m excited for everything that lies ahead. Here’s to embracing the challenges, learning every step of the way, and continuing to grow in 2026.
- Rin ♡